Nostalgia

Josh and I are both very sentimental people.  We save and keep everything that meant something to us. This can be a very bad and annoying habit!! 

A few years ago we were having a serious discussion with a group of friends. Someone said, that if your house burned down today, you should be fine with it because everything that is inside are just material possessions. Why do you need the big flat screen tv? Why do you need the fancy table with perfect chairs? You can't go to Heaven with them.

 Well, when Josh and I got in the car--we both agreed that we thought they were crazy. Sure, a lot of the stuff in our house are just "things." However, those "things" are what we worked for. If we lost all of those things-sure we can go get another TV or another dining room set, but the memories are so precious--not just the memory of us saving our money and purchasing them, but the memories that happen around them too.

This is the kitchen table where Josh and I sat and discussed how we were ready to start a family. We were so excited, we kept talking about how great it would be to have a little "Marissa" running around the house.  I remember when he came home from work months and months later and I told him I was pregnant. I'll never forget the look on his face. We were ecstatic. We couldn't wait to go to the doctor to see the sweet baby. 

This is the den, when I realized I was most likely losing our first baby. Granted, I was only 9 weeks along, but it hurts no less or no more than anyone else who has miscarried. We had seen the baby's heartbeat, I thought, it just can't be true. I laid on the couch all evening in pain, praying. My aunt told me to drink some wine and relax. I couldn't--I just kept hoping.

Months later, we came home through these doors with an ultrasound of Elise. In August she was born! She was the healthy baby we had been praying for. We were so nervous and excited. 

Years later, we came through this door carrying our sweet Claire. I can't put in to words the love we feel for these girls. They are our everything.

This is the house we started our family. To some people it might be small, to some it might be huge. It's our first house and will always be special. We will miss you!!